Hello my name is Robin and my blog is about whatever mostly music and stuff but oh well.

I was fine with being single for the past 9 months. Now I'm getting sick of it. Not because I'm necessarily lonely but because I'm the only one of my immediate friends who is single and now because of it I never get invited to anything anymore and I get ditched for girls all of the time now. Maybe I did at one time but now I sure could use my guy friends and maybe the girl that I actually like noticing me. But whatever. 

I'm back to school . I'm devastated at the same time. Not that I necessarily hate school but the fact that my ex has choosen to come to the same college as me. It doesn't seem fair however I will survive. And now she is texting my best friend. He doesn't understand why either. I'm sure its because she is lonely on campus and is bored and possibly because she misses me. But my friend has the kindest heart of anyone I've ever met in my life and he can't just not text her back. She supposedly has a boyfriend too but her sneaking around on him isn't that far out of the picture considering she did it to me.

I'm not sure why I'm even worried. I'm a Junior she's a Freshman. All of my classes are now focused. Hers will be gen-ed hell. Hopefully she drops out or flunks.

Maybe I'll meet a good girl on campus this year. That would be good. Or at least make some new friends. That would actually be freakin sweet .

So yesterday I bought a longboard. I really like it. I've never skated or longboarded or been really good at anything that involved balance for that reason. But its the first thing I've actually bought for myself in like 2 years. Yeah I've fallen already. And yes I've hurt my knee. But this is something I feel as if i need to conquer. I can do it. But its cool. 

I will have a Mini Cooper S

Fubar describes how I am right now. 

I'm alive. 

Sorry its been so long since my last post. Currently I am sitting in my room at PCB. I'm amazed at how relaxed I am right now. I was so self conscious before the trip cause I'm a bit heavy. Even though I'm a lot less than I was. Well You know what I don't care because the people I'm with just don't care. Its great. I'm just hoping that there is this one girl here on our trip that I can try to get to know a little. Not looking for anything serious. Just possibly a walk on the beach and maybe some hand holding. I know coming from a College guy that sounds stupid but right now its really what I want and most likely need. I'm not ready for all of the other serious crap.  

I think I may have met and have known the girl of my dreams for about 4 or 5 years now. Its annoying because she turned me down as soon as we were about to date. We have been right to that point like 6 or 7 times now. We still hang out. And somehow we always end up ending our hang out time with tears for hurting each other and wanting each other and all everything and a kiss. I'm so confused. I just don't understand her.

I feel as if I'm not good enough. But we're so different and similar at the same time. Oh well.

I'm home again. This is all crazy here. I'm kind of confused on what to do about the girls in my life. They are so confusing. I guess my problem is that I am the type that wants to settle down. Which is weird coming from a guy. The hard part is finding someone that I actually get along with. I have so much that I look for. I'm pretty much just an extremely picky human being.

Oh well. This blog has just helped me by letting me read my own thoughts. Which is the most helpful thing.

Just a few odd things about me that I do.

When I buy gas It has to end on a 0 or a 5 in the cost. I prefer if it is an even dollar or 50 cents but as long as it is a 5 or 0 it is fine.

I studder when I talk to a girl that I'm interested in or think is cute.

Apparently according to my friends (girls and guys) I am too NICE to girls and thats why Girls don't like me.

I give my heart away too easily.

I really enjoy vintage things.

If I had a type of girl it would be a 40s or 50s pinup girl.

I love cars. All types.